Friday 21 April 2023

My Journey - 3

The Experience has given me new identity and now I could understand my desires better. Now I know what I really want from my life and how I want to spend it. I started exploring more on Internet about Crossdressing Porn and came across lot of Porn Videos on Shemale & Crossdressers. However, all of these Videos are of Foreign Crossdressers and Shemales. I also had a desire to live my life as a girl and find it more prudent if I can relocate outside India and live as Full Time Crossdresser or Shemale. In order to proceed with this plan, I needed a lot of Money which is not possible by just doing a normal Job. Hence, I thought to better expose myself more on Internet to earn Money through my Online Videos and Paid Platforms where you need membership to view the content. I also started advertising on Makeover of other Crossdressers as per their choice. I spent almost 50k to arrange everything and shifted to another isolated place where there should be no disturbance from anyone. As I cant expose such things by living in a Society or Colony. I have to hide my identity as well so that should not get exposed in my professional life till am financially stable. In about 3 Months, it's start giving me dividend, where I have visits from other Crossdressers on a Weekend for a Makeover and more likes & hits on my Online Platforms. In 6 Months, I recovered my Money of 50k of initial investment and earning profits. However, that was not enough and pace being very slow.

I was also getting lot of requests from Men to spend time with me. Some looking for sexual pleasure and very few just wanted to spend time with me as a gf to them. I thought that would be another good way to earn Money and hence, I started going out with Men on a condition that I will decide after meeting them that our date will convert into a sexual pleasure or not. I started from 2k and within few Months, I could easily earn 5-7k for normal time spend and almost 15k for a sexual pleasure, spending night with them. I knew could become a Porn Star but there was no other way to earn more Money. I infact recorded some of my Sexual encounters but never posted online as I wanted to keep them as new when move abroad and meet Producers of Studio who make Crossdressing Movies.

Monday 10 April 2023

My Journey - 2

Now am 25yrs of Age and it's been almost 1yr with Nisha as a Good Friend. I have my own collection of dresses which includes Saree and perfect fit stitched blouse, Salwar Suits and Western Wear. Nisha helped me a lot to stitch some dresses of my size itself. I also bought breast forms of 34 Size so that it can provide me a perfect look when dressed. My body language has become little feminine due to being dressed as a female full time when at Home. I was very careful while going to office, however, people note such changes but it's fine and not a big deal. I got an opportunity to work in a big MNC and accepted the Offer. I wanted to relocate far from my Hometown so that I should have least interaction and meet-up with my Family. In any case, somehow my Parents were more focused and close to my sister and that suited me. I know by relocating will be far from Nisha but sometimes we need to take tough steps.

I moved to Bengaluru and started working in my New Company. I took 1BHK Apartment in an isolated area to have least interaction with people. Due to Traffic in Bengaluru, Work From Home culture being more prominent and I used that to my advantage. I started visiting Office once or twice in a week and slowly converted that too a Month. My Company had 1000s of Employees and hence, does not make any difference. In any case I was not too ambitious because of my Crossdressing as I wanted to live my life as a girl and that was my top priority.

As I hardly need to visit Office, I started living as a Female full time even during Office Hours. I increased my collection of Female Stuff and daily used to dress-up like a girl. Some days I used to wear Salwar Suit, and atleast 2-3 days in a Week, I used to dress in a Saree as that's my favorite attire. My Hair were already till my Shoulders and started taking more supplements and cosmetics to increase them further. I also took Permanent Hair Removal sessions to avoid clean shaving every Week. In a Span of 1yr, I had smooth skin like girls with no body hair and my Hair grown to below shoulders. I opted for Permanent Work From Home citing personal & medical reasons. I got those Approvals as my work could easily be done from Home. I met up with other CDs in Bengaluru and attended 1-2 Events as well. I realized that there is much more scope of earning online and hence I started posting content of me being dressed as a girl to attract more followers. 

Once I was chatting on Facebook and came across another CD in Bengaluru. We planned to meet at my Place on a Weekend. He came on Saturday Night and brought some of her stuff as well. However, not clean shaved and told me that due to travel he has to keep similar look as Passport. I was little angry as now only I could dress-up. So I started dressing up, I wore a Red Bra and Panty after my Breastforms. He asked me to wear a Saree and I could not say No. He selected one of the heavy Saree from my collection and I started wearing petticoat and blouse of the same. I started doing my makeup and he urged to have little heavy makeup. I was surprised and asked why, he reluctantly answered that wanted to treat me his gf/wife as he really liked my Pics on facebook. He is not an Active Crossdresser but more of an admirer. I was very angry but did not want to create any scene and thought of a new adventure. I started doing more Heavy Makeup. I applied Foundation, Compact, eye liner with matching eye shadow. I used darkest or mehroon lipstick to complete my look along with long earrings and nose ring. I also used fake eye-lashes to look more sexy. I started wearing my Saree and kept my hair open as already little longer than my shoulders. He asked if I have long hair wig. I told him that as am growing my hair have extensions but not a long hair wig. He smiled and gave me a surprise with a long hair beautiful wig. The wig was very long and thick almost to my waist height. It was looking like original hair. He told me that he like long hair and hence purchased this wig for me so that can have my complete look as per his likings. I did not how to react but liked it. I wore the wig as per the steps given in the packet and it changed my look to perfection. I was admiring my Looks and he came from behind and pin-up long gajra as well. It was the first time I wore such a wig with gajra and admiring my beauty.

Now am standing in front of him all being dressed up in Saree with Full-Makeup, Jewellery and gajra. He came forward and said something is missing. Before I could answer, he applied sindoor and said you are my wife now. I did not know how I could not stop him from doing all this as inside I was enjoying and liking it. It was almost 9pm in the Night and feeling hungry. We ordered Dinner and he helped me to eat as well like was his newly wedded wife. After Dinner I touched up my Lipstick and bit more makeup and we started watching TV. He pushed me more closer towards him. I was really following all his commands and action. I could not understand how I became such submissive in front of him. While watching TV, he was exploring my hairless body and started kissing me on my neck. Before I could say anything, he kissed me deeply and passionately on my lips. I wanted to get free but he was strong enough to over-power me and I was also not trying much and gave in. I also started kissing him back and we had a long kiss. He started kissing me all over and I was enjoying every bit of it. He has converted me completely as his wife and I was following him blindly. He push my hands towards his Penis which had come to life. I was rubbing it above his clothes and he asked me to take it out. I unzipped his Pants and took out his Penis almost 7inch. I was afraid a bit, but he pushed me towards his Penis. My mouth took his Penis without much force. He was forcing me up and down on his Penis from my hair in his hands. After few mins pushed me towards wall and started kissing me from back. He slowly removed my Saree and kissing me all over. He removed my Peticoat and Blouse as well. Now I am only in my Panty and bra with all Jewellery and long hair. The whole experience was making me very horny. He went to dressing table and brought a cream and applied on his Penis. I knew, what's going to happen now but did not stop him. He kept my panty aside and started pushing his Penis. It was my first time so he had to push really hard. After few attempts it went inside and I screamed. He put his hands on my mouth and pushed further. He started taking very small strokes and applied more cream on his Penis. In few minuted my ass could accommodate it properly and he was completely inside me now. He started taking long strokes from my back. I was feeling a lot of Pain but also started enjoying it. He fucked me for almost 10mins in similar position and shooted all his load inside my ass.

He kissed me passionately again to give me a final push. His Penis started to shrink and came out automatically. My cherry been broken and not a virgin anymore. I hugged him tightly to confirm that liked the whole experience and fucking session. We were both exhausted a bit. I went into Bathroom to clean-up myself and he relaxed on the bed. Instead of cleaning everything, I touched up my Makeup a little bit, applied dark Purple Lipstick along with Purple Nighty with Gown. I came out and he smiled at me. I straightway went towards him and he took me in his arms. We started exploring each other's body and dozed off. I woke up early in the Morning while still in his arms. I kissed him and could see a Tent from his underwear. I tried to feel it and that woke him up. He pushed me towards him and kissed me on my Lips once again. We had a passionate french kiss and I automatically started to stroke his penis by my hands. He lowered his underwear and asked me to sit on it. I did and it was a difficult position for me but he managed to put his penis in my ass. I wanted to scream but he kept his lips on mine and exploring my lips. I could not utter a word and his Penis was all the way in my ass again. He stroked a few times and then asked me to ride up and down on it. I tried and he found my g-spot. It was all pleasure then and I started bouncing up and down his penis. My hair flying on my back and bangles making lot of noise. All this driving me crazy. He asked me to change Position while sitting on his penis and I have my back in front of him and hair on my boobs now. He was pressing my boobs from the back and I was bouncing up and down on his Penis. It was an awesome position and feeling. After few mins he cummed inside me again and this time I could feel his load all over inside me as if am going to be pregnant now. His penis popped out and surprisingly not much of his Juices came out as he was deep inside and hence shooted his Load much more deeper. My position was like a newly wedded wife who lost his cherry twice to her newly wedded husband. It was a great experience. After all this fucking I could not walk properly and lot of Pain in my ass but all good from my end.

I wore my nighty again and adjusted myself. I went into Kitchen and brought Tea for both of us. We had Tea while sitting close to each other. After Tea, we again hugged each other and laid on the bed like a Couple. For almost 1hr we were cuddling and feeling each other. Around 10am, he wanted to leave and I asked him to freshen-up before leaving. He looked at me seductively as I was inviting him for something. I understood the mischievousness in his eye and nodded my head. We both went to Bathroom together. I removed my wig and now in my original hair but did not remove my Bra and Panty. Under the shower, we again kissed each other passionately. We were playing with each other bodies. I gave him another blow Job and later he fucked me again under the shower. However, this time he shooted all his Load on my body instead of inside. I cleaned myself and we applied soap to each other. After almost half an hour in shower we came out wearing a Towel. I went to my dressing table and did light makeup with bright pink Lipstick. I wore a casual Kurti and lower to complement my looks. He wore his clothes and we had breakfast. After breakfast he kissed me on my lips again and we hugged each other to see off each other. He left, leaving long hair wig as a gift to me. It was a memorable evening where in less than 12hrs I was fucked 3 times rigorously. For almost 2-3 days I had pain in my ass and could not walk properly because of all the fucking.